my heart & my brain

One chapter of happiness.

2010-08-03T22:34:00.003+08:00

My dearest family members, my mother's side.
amazing people, amazing family.
xx

2010-08-03T21:41:00.004+08:00

p.s. aunty vee, thank you for universal studio.

She's awesome.

2010-08-02T20:40:00.003+08:00

i love my greatgrandma much.

2010-08-02T20:32:00.002+08:00

I likeeeeeeee food, I loveeeeeee food.

FOOD YOU DRIVE ME CRAZY. HAH.

P.S. You make me LIVE.

2010-07-29T22:51:00.012+08:00

We live and die.

Smile because it's free, no one can take that away.
With money, we can buy anything. It can even buy happiness.
Only two things that money couldn't buy is the smile and the air.
So smile because we have air to breathe.
I have amazing family and friends.
Let me show them to you all.
A few pictures of people that are in my life,
I randomly selected a few from my album.

YOU GUYS MAKE ME LIVE, WITHOUT YOU GUYS I WON'T BE HERE RIGHT NOW.
I WOULD BE SOMEWHERE UNDER SOME ROCK AT SOME LONELY PLACE.
Thankyou.

PICTURE PICTURE PICTURE.

2010-07-26T20:40:00.005+08:00

2010-07-24T02:29:00.002+08:00

I love my family and my friends.

2010-07-24T02:06:00.005+08:00

Every little kid fears to be alone, in the dark or maybe scared of ghost.

We as humans fear all the time. At times we are so scared that we don't even realise we hide and run away. Afraid to get hurt and hurt others. Life is all about being scared and overcoming it.

It's really not wrong to be afraid and cry.
Many have told me, 'why the fuck do i cry so much?' 'i hate myself for crying' and stuff like that.
FYI, IT'S NOT WRONG TO CRY.
Sometimes we cry because we just feel like it, there is no such law or rule that says crying is wrong. yes, crying makes us all look weak and emotional but why do you even care?That day, I saw someone said this 'only kids and babies cry, grow up.'
I tell you, it's bullshit.Everyone cries.
baby,kid,teenagers,boy,girl,man,woman,gay,lesbian,bi,adults,old folks. EVERYONE CRIES.

So, come on. stop telling people crying is wrong. IT IS NOT.
Some tear because they are very happy.
crying doesn't show it all. there are many reasons to cry.
so why hide and why control? just let it be, don't control just for others.

We should really live life to the fullest.
Who knows what will happen tomorrow.

I am very sleepy but i can't sleep. I guess i should wait for my sister to come home.

malam, goodbye.

2010-07-14T21:59:00.005+08:00

One word : Different.

Everyone is different, different in every way.
I still believe in every human, there's a good side in them.
No one is 100% evil and bad.
No matter how terrible the person is, there's a good part i'm sure.
To me, i really think everyone is unique in their own ways.
There's no perfect person. That i'm sure.

We should accept everyone for who they are, we always do and say stuff without thinking.
We do silly stuff and say nonsense. We just really judge someone way to fast.

Try not to regret if possible, the feeling really sucks when you regret something.

p.s. we know it's wrong to judge people, but we always judge without knowing.

2010-07-12T23:17:00.000+08:00

It's just so crazy.

stop doing this to me, please.

Thank you.

2010-07-12T23:13:00.003+08:00

SUPHA SAID :

you're my little hero. i believe in you.

i know heroes have heroes' problem. but i understand your predicament!

i understand because i like the fact that you're in my life. like really really like!

you've brought to me much joys and support :)

so thank you very much. i can't physically be there right beside you.

but for sure i will pray for you whenever i talk to God. i know He listens.

and He knows too my little hero always helped me. so this time He will help you =)

you're the light that brightens up gloomy days.

your words are like sun rays.

you know i love the sun.
xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

.p.s. thank you, never failed trying to make me smile. it means a lot. thank you

WORLD CUP.

2010-07-12T13:05:00.003+08:00

SPAIN SPAIN SPAIN SPAIN SPAIN SPAIN SPAIN SPAIN SPAIN SPAIN SPAIN SPAIN !

slept at 6am and woke up at 12pm. awesome feeling.

I'm sure half of the students in school or my class are at home now and not in school.

CONGRATS SPAIN! =)

Happy Birthday, Haa.

2010-07-11T21:39:00.005+08:00

Thanks Jian Lynn for drawing this.
The book we did, from all of us here.

This is the birthday girl.

She's Fariha abd razak aka haa.

our favourite teacher and also netball coach.

The only four chinese netballers.

Siblings.

Some of us, some didn't come.

Photographer and designer of the book.

Jess the planner.

The teacher we love. haha.

Haa and pn aerma.

Haa and me.

Haa sayang, Happy Birthday.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU, HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO HAA, HAPPY BIRTHDAY, HAPPY BIRTHDAY FARIHA ABD RAZAK, HAPPY BIRTHDAY, HAPPY HAPPY BIRTHDAY.

I hope you liked the present,book,cake,surprise and everything.

for someone important, it's worth it.

2010-07-08T23:16:00.002+08:00

Sometimes just knowing there is one way is better than knowing there is more ways. The more we know, the harder to choose.

We should give meaning to life, not wait for life to give us meaning.

2010-07-07T23:37:00.002+08:00

Do you believe that love will cover it all?
Yes i do believe because i know so and love does cover it all.
Love can overtake my unhappiness.
All we need is one person, just one that could love us,
it will cover it all, really.

We know what a person thinks not when he tells us what he thinks, but by his actions.
don't blame the world for your mistakes, it's your mistake not the world.
Even more, do not blame God for anything, without God your nothing.

Don't go around saying the world owes you a living; the world owes you nothing; it was here first.

2010-07-07T22:58:00.002+08:00

to choose the right and wrong.
In life, we have to choose one.
the right or wrong.
which would you choose?

Sometimes the right thing hurts most,
the wrong thing is normally happy.

Would you still pick the right if it makes you unhappy?
I still think we have a decision to make, everyone gets a chance to choose.
Whatever we choose, we need to accept the consequences.

We are humans that change the world.
in every different ways, somehow another we would change this world.

There is only one success: to be able to spend your life in your own way, and not to give others absurd maddening claims upon it.

Supha ;

2010-07-06T21:38:00.003+08:00

you want to know something?
everytime you say, i saved you from this and that.
i would like to tell you, the stuff you do for me are way more.
you will make me smile and just because of your little things you do.
makes me want to be there for you to care and help you.
i would take time to help you and be there for you is because
you are worth it, suphatta low.

you can do it, come on. :)

2010-07-06T00:16:00.003+08:00

There's no use talking about the problem unless you talk about the solution.

Don't hide, don't run away, don't turn back, don't stop, don't turn left or right. Just face it and keep on going, move forward. It might be hard, it might hurt, it might make us very unhappy to move on and to accept the truth but the truth is always the best. nothing can change the fact of the truth.

we are like tiny ants finding for food, when there is sugar we go there. when there is tasty food we all go there but do we think of the consequences. we might just go and eat the food for a second and die the next minute when someone smashes us with their hands. tiny ants are brave as well. that means however small we feel, however lousy and useless we feel, as long as we are brave. we can do all things. believing in ourselves is very important. if we do not believe in ourselves, we can never find it easy believing others. Like people always say, love yourself before loving others. sometimes taking risk is better than not doing anything and not trying. who knows what will happen. trying will always be better than not trying. giving up before trying is what losers do. we should buck up and go on with life. if i could sum everything up, in three words. it would be 'it goes on'

"Do-so" is more important than "say-so."

2010-07-05T22:06:00.002+08:00

Tough times won't last, a tough person will last.

I believe there is a way for everything.

:)

; AMY JANE YEAP.

2010-07-05T00:22:00.006+08:00

SHE'S AMY.

i'll miss you, i had fun. :)

3 JULY

2010-07-04T20:48:00.002+08:00

HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY, NORINA NADHIRAH!
Sorry for the late post here but i did call you and text you right. hee.
I hope you enjoyed your birthday.
your a great friend, it's good to know you.
happy happy birthday again =)
take good care, i'll see you tomorrow at school. haha.
xxxxxxxxxx

2010-07-03T01:33:00.001+08:00

LET IT GO, J.
LET IT GO, J.
LET IT GO, J.
LET IT GO, J.
LET IT GO, J.

2010-07-03T00:31:00.002+08:00

Family.
Father and Mother I love you.

Sabily.
Sister and Brother I love you.

2010-06-29T20:32:00.002+08:00

Dear God, I surrender.
That's the most I could do and I'm not perfect.
Lead the way and let me live.
I believe and have faith.
Help me, I need you.

2010-06-29T20:21:00.002+08:00

I sit here thinking of nothing, blank.
Why am I not thinking of anything right now?
That's just really rare and weird. Maybe I'm just tired.

27 June 1995, Happy Birthday Heather Tay.

2010-06-29T20:07:00.005+08:00

Heather Tay, she's 15 years old. she's unique in her own ways. she's a good person and a very good friend. it's good to be in a same cell group with her. it's fun and she just makes me laugh all the time.

She invited us to her house for bbq party (birthday party). it was a small party but I had fun. i shall let the pictures do the talking then.

again, thank you for inviting me. Happy Belated Birthday.

2010-06-24T22:12:00.002+08:00

Human life is purely a matter of deciding what's important to you.
Life is the sum of all your choices

I'm not sure if believing is enough, it takes so much more.

it's already 25 June 2010.
Happy Anny V.

2010-06-21T21:24:00.005+08:00

When i seek for you, you were there. I couldn't see you, but i felt you.

try telling me there is no God. I would tell you this, I felt god and no one can take that away from me. I am proud that I AM A CHRISTIAN.

I realise that friends come and go, there is no such thing as 'friend's forever'. you may not know what will happen in future, the most we could do is keep the friendship as long as we could. that's all we could try. no point saying 'we are friends forever' . it's real bullshit. there is no such thing as forever.

We might have many good friends, but we normally couldn't find many true friends. True friends are hard to find.To be able to trust someone with all out hearts, it's something really hard. For us to tell a big secret and problem to a person, we need trust. Friends can give us short term happiness but friends can't be there with us for 24/7. We all need someone and I choose to have God in me.

I choose to believe and trust, it's all up to us if we want to believe.

My school teacher said something to me just now, she said to me ' Joanne,its good i know you are a happy girl, you don't get sad over your results'.

I replied my teacher, I told her. 'it's not that i don't care, it's because i think positively so that i would continue trying'.

okay, that's all. here are some pictures, HOLIDAY PICTURES!

Sometimes we do stupid things, sometimes we do things that we know we might regret,sometimes we are afraid to hurt the others so we hurt ourselves,sometimes we hurt others to protect ourselves,sometimes we hide our sadness to show others we are strong,sometimes we hate others for having better stuff in life than us,sometimes we get jealous ,sometimes we go crazy missing someone,sometimes we miss our past,sometimes we hope we can change back time,sometimes we hope we will die,sometimes we hope we get the best lover,sometimes we expect to much,sometimes we get annoyed by ourselves,sometimes we force ourselves to be numb so that we can stop feeling unhappy, sometimes we just think to much,sometimes we suspect, sometimes we do not trust,sometimes we laugh, sometimes we cry,sometimes we smile, sometimes we realise there is nothing in the world that could make us happy, sometimes we feel our life is full of shit, sometimes we feel our life is awesome,sometimes we love everything,sometimes we hate everything,sometimes we believe,sometimes we do this and that but i know something, that God would ALWAYS LOVE US NO MATTER WHAT .

I am who I am, because thee I am says I am.

7 JUNE.

2010-06-09T21:15:00.009+08:00

Hwello yellow heylo.

had a great time laughing with the girls at v's place.
it was good times. the food,the laughing part,the stories,the stone parts,the lazy parts and the video of course. we were doing our NIE project. =]

The people ; Hui Mei, Jesslyn, Me, Winnie, Victoria.

Jesssaaa and me.

Jessa,Hui mei,v,winnie and me.

v and j.

Only those who will risk going too far can possibly find out how
far one can go.

You never fail until you stop trying.I think the greatest mistake you can make in this life is to be continually
fearing you will make one. =]

1 2 3 SAY CHEESE.

2010-06-09T02:31:00.002+08:00

Hello good morningnight.
it's 2:40am now and i'm awake.
not sleepy not tired not yawning yet.

when i'm bored, this is what i do......

malam, salty dreams.
bye bye.

sayang, imy. goodnight.

5 June.

2010-06-06T18:44:00.006+08:00

dua orang ini make me a happy person last night.

Janice&Jillian. :)

HAVE A GREAT HOLIDAY!
<3

2010-06-05T12:29:00.005+08:00

My Parents, Faye Chian and Martin Chian.
F.A.M.I.LY. =
father and mother i love you.

World most important person : ABANG AKU.
JEREMY CHIAN.
I LUB YOU.

sister not around so here's a picture for her.
one and only best sister, siapa?
JANICE CHIAN.

world bestest friend : Victoria Chew.
<3

that's me. JOANNE CHIAN.

p.s. Thank you for teman-ing me, victoria chew. :-)

2010-05-31T21:26:00.005+08:00

Hello Wello Jello,

updating something now because many asked me too.
so here goes with my crap and nonsense.

Just now while I always doing my exam,I stopped and looked at my hand. I was thinking to myself, 'oh joanne you can't even write properly.' Then, I sat there and think for minutes. maybe my hand is the main thing that pushes me to go on, when the pain is there.. I would always try to change the way of using the pen and write without hurting my hand. it makes me want to go on more then stop, it makes me really angry and annoyed when it hurts so i go on and try to make it stop hurting. then I realise, I need the pain to bring me forward. oh well, I continued my exam and finished it. it hurts but it was all good. guess i'm already all used to the pain. ahh, great. like i said, i'm sure going to blog crap. hee hee sorry about that.

Yessaaaa, one more week to go.
What are you all going to do for your holiday?
it's two weeks of holiday and I don't know what to do yet.

I'm always in my room alone, sitting on the bed with my lap top off. sitting beside my two phone's hoping to get messages. listening to songs from my ipod. looking at pooh, eeyore and bear. thinking of the future and memories. that's what I normally do. then, when i'm sleepy.
i'll go brush my teeth,make my bed,off the lights,say a short prayer and turn in.
it's actually nice, I get bored and lonely at times without my siblings annoying me with their stories. I do miss my siblings, but not all the time because i still see them every weekends. so yeah. :-)

alright, I really have nothing to say.
I'll update again when I feel like it.

When we smile, our heart smiles with us.

Give yourself a break.

2010-05-28T23:13:00.002+08:00

TWO WORDS : numb and stone.

Have a great weekend peeps! =)

IMISSYOUSOMUCH,MYDC.

Oh School.

2010-05-20T21:05:00.003+08:00

school is not that bad when there are friends and sports.
it's fun when you get to laugh and talk all day.
it's boring when there's annoying teachers and boring teachers teaching.
it's so interesting when there is chances we could talk back and have fun with teachers.
school is a nice place with chairs,tables,grass,bags,canteen,hall,classes,toilets but the best part is still the friends and company of people there.

All The Best for everyone that are having their examinations nowww.
mine is next week. ohhhhhhh crap. Hee.

ps. being yourself is still the best.

2010-05-10T21:34:00.003+08:00

Be brave to face the world. Life is a game we have to play.
We can run but we can't hide. what for running when we can face it.
Everything will be ok if you want it to be.
It's all about accepting and letting go.

Take a break,give yourself a rest.

2010-05-08T22:16:00.000+08:00

PAUSE.

2010-05-03T20:44:00.001+08:00

YOU ARE JUST CRAZY.

STOP IT STOP IT STOP IT.

; hate feeling sick.

2010-05-03T14:02:00.002+08:00

Hello, I skipped school today.
I'm sick, yeah. sick.
it sucks to be sick.
feeling of cold hot cold hot sucks to the max.

i am bored. so here i am. blogging.

here are two recent pictures.

V and me at church.

IU day. (V,JL,J,E) My babes.

2010-04-29T20:14:00.002+08:00

1) How are you feeling?
don't ask.
2)What's on your mind?
don't know. nothing. everything.
3)What do you want to do?
I want to run away.
4)What do you wish to do right now?
I don't know.
5)What are you doing now?
I'm rotting.
6)Who do you miss?
Aunty mary.
7) Who do you want to meet now?
No one.
8) Who is on your mind?
Everyone.
9) If you could get a hug from someone now, who would it be?
V and Haa.
10) Who are you texting?
Jess.
11) What is the word you want to say right now?
Nothing.
12) What are you suppose to do now?
homeworks.
13) What are you going to do later at night?
sleep.
14) If you could change back time to anytime this year. when will it be?and why?
I think its my birthday. maybe. not sure.
15) If you could forget something now, what will it be?
i don't know.
16) What is the first word you say when you wake up?
don't really remember.
17) What's the first thing you do when you wake up?
I find my phone.
18) Who do you love most?
My brother.
19) Are you in pain?
i guess so.
20) Say one word.
Bye.

Someone I would never forget.

2010-04-28T20:43:00.001+08:00

The little things she does, makes me happy. Even though I might not agree with everything she does or say at times but I do love her very much as a friend. She is like my best friend and also my enemy. We argue like divorce couples, we fight like we are in the taekwondo competition, we disagree with each other like we are lawyers but we know each other well and understands each other like drug addicts. She is my drug that makes me happy.

(This is a part of my essay, this essay was for my exam)

-Joanne Chian.

2010-04-27T17:26:00.002+08:00

Some say by just giving up is the best choice.
There are some that say it's easy to say 'I GIVE UP'.
what about you?
I think it's easy to say 'I GIVE UP' but it's hard to really give up.
saying it is easy for sure. it says actions speaks louder than words.
It does not mean you already gave up when you say 'i give up'.
sometimes people just say it to run away from problems or maybe they are just scared.
fear is something really scary. it kills our mood and body.
fear makes us cry and feel pain inside.
why do we always fear.. because we do not believe.
if we believe and if we are sure about it. we would not fear.
we should trust and believe. it does not need to be for others.
but ourselves, we have to start with ourselves.
if we do not trust and believe in ourselves. we can't trust or believe others.
*

if we want others to trust and believe in us, we have to first believe in ourselves
-Joanne Chian.

2010-04-25T22:34:00.003+08:00

Sometimes we just need to know when to stop.

I want more happy days, that is what everyone wants.
It's so tiring when we have to think and feel about all the unhappy stuff.
Everyone of us wants to be right and someone must be the one who steps down and say sorry.
I guess sometimes it's not that we don't want to talk or say, it's we are tired of explaining and trying. We may not realise, but at times we let our feelings control us.
Would you please give my little brain and little heart a break?
I guess the answer would be : No.
*
Okay, goodnight!
Happy Anny, V.
*

Fear.

2010-04-22T20:59:00.002+08:00

It's already 22 april 2010.
Time is gold.
*
For everything there is a season,
And a time for every matter under heaven:
A time to be born, and a time to die;
A time to plant, and a time to pluck up what is planted;
A time to kill, and a time to heal;
A time to break down, and a time to build up;
A time to weep, and a time to laugh;
A time to mourn, and a time to dance;
A time to throw away stones, and a time to gather stones together;
A time to embrace, And a time to refrain from embracing;
A time to seek, and a time to lose;
A time to keep, and a time to throw away;
A time to tear, and a time to sew;
A time to keep silence, and a time to speak;
A time to love, and a time to hate,
A time for war, and a time for peace.
*
Sometimes I expect to much and it makes me go crazy.
I know I should not expect anything at all, but somehow I just would.
Like what others say, we should not expect if we do not want to be disappointed.
Those who will play with cats must expect to be scratched.
*
we do learn from our experience and every step of the journey to the end of life is important.
one wrong turn or one wrong step can kill us.

There might be no tomorrow. treasure everyday.

2010-04-13T20:08:00.004+08:00

What will your last words be if the world ends tonight?

*
who will be the last few lucky people to hear what you want to say?
your family members? your friends? your dog? your teachers? your enemies?
who will it be for you?
i guess for me, it would be less than 10 people i would want to talk to.
i would not waste anytime to talk to others.
i guess there is only a certain people in my life that i treasure and love.
it's hard for me to love and its very hard for me to please everyone.
it seems easy yet its damn tiring.
i guess i'm just tired, i need a break.
my brain can really make me go crazy, it doesn't stop thinking.
negative or positive, it does not even stop when i sleep.
oh well, that is why i'm always tired even if i sleep for 24 hours.
we can't do much about life, because this is life.
i regret and i miss many many things, but i can't turn back time.
i guess we must accept the fact that looking back at our sad memories will only make ourselves feel worse.
we should really just forget and let it go.
continue life with what we have right now is most important.
*
life is a journey and it might be a very tiring journey but i have always believed that if we never give up, we will always reach the end. no matter what is the ending of our journey, we are still winners because we never gave up. giving up means failure. as long as we continue our journey, we are all winners.
*

treasure the people you care and love.

Jess's birthday.

2010-04-11T18:50:00.002+08:00

Jess,Vic and i sat bus from school to city square. :)

in the bus.

the birthday girl wearing my shorts and shirt. hwua. tsk. (supha, sorry ah she no shirt :P)

sista oi sista.

her happy face after the lunch/dinner.
*

she enjoyed and i'm happy. heh.

Happy Birthday Sisterku, hwuaa.

2010-04-06T20:23:00.004+08:00

Jesslyn Neo Sin Jye, 15 years old tomorrow.
7april. nice number lahh jess. heh.
It's her birthday, I will be celebrating her birthday later on.
She used to be my primary school mate and now she's also my school mate.
I use to dislike her much but noww, hwuaa. sayang her to the max. :D
She's someone with bad mood swings. it scares me at times. cheh, not that bad but yeahh. you should see someday. her mood can change very fast. hehe.
we are like a small family in school, esp when we are in netball.
Family members :Nicole.Jesslyn.Victoria.Me. ohh and maybe fariha. ( you know what i mean rightt jess. haha)
she gives me her 1000 moods. her replies for text are terrible. she loves to call me at the wrong time. she will 'sha jiao' with me when she wants something. she will scold me when she's crazy.haha. that's her jesslyn. sister aku. tsk. haha.
she helped me a lot this year and I really thank her for that.
Thank You Jess. :)
*
hwuaa, proud to say.
she's my sister. Heh.
*
HAPPY BIRTHDAY JESS.
love you lahh. hwuaa.

F AND A. :P

*

with love,
JC.

My Numbers.

2010-04-03T15:14:00.003+08:00

We can't run away from life,we can't hide for long, we can't sleep to avoid pain.
Problems,hurt,misunderstanding,unhappiness,anger,frustration will always be there no matter how long you sleep,how long you hide yourself in the room.
If there is a problem or unhappy feeling, solve it and procrastinating does not help.
Life is one big judgment call.
we should accept the challenges, so that we may feel the exhilaration of victory.
*

Life is the game that must be played.
~Edwin Arlington Robinson

2010-04-01T22:41:00.003+08:00

if you say your a winner, you are one. being able to say out loud that you are a winner already makes you a winner.
*
i don't have the mood to blog at all anymore.
so, i'll just wait till i get back the mood and interest in blogging.
*
Some answers are given to me and from all the answers I got.
I realise that life is so short and time is gold.
knowing that we may just disappear one day, it makes me fear.
*
hatred is really not needed, when you can love.. why not?
it is very tiring to have hatred in you.
*
ahh greattttt, i'm typing crap again.
*
so yeahhh, good bye for now.

Happy April's Fool.

I got a feeling, tonight's going to be a good night.

2010-03-25T00:04:00.006+08:00

Today is a date i would not forget.
it's a good date.
I won't say much,let the pictures do the talking.
It has been three years, not long but not short.
*
you know me and i know you. that already kills the world.that's why we are best friends.

You are someone i treasure much, thank you for everything v.

Treasure everything we have.

2010-03-23T17:43:00.004+08:00

Every babies goes to heaven, that I know.
rest in peace little baby.

*
I have been hearing lots of news about people passing away.
It makes me real sad and it makes me think a lot.
life is so unpredictable. we could just suddenly not wake up or suddenly faint and die.
it makes me want to treasure life more and treasure the people thats still around.
living with regrets or leaving with regrets is one of the few things i do not want to go thru.life is amazing but just one thing can change our amazing life's.
it makes me fear that what if my family members or myself just pass away like that.
what will happen to me if it happens? I really have no clue.
guess all I can do now is treasure what I have now, the people I love, the stuff I have,the life I have and the others I shall hand it all to god.God will decide my life, I can only follow what he decides.
*

I do hope that I would never need to go thru regrets.
treasure life like how god treasure's us.

Formspring

2010-03-22T18:05:00.001+08:00

http://www.formspring.me/joannechian

National Cheerleading Championship.

2010-03-21T19:15:00.008+08:00

1st National Cheerleading Championships 2010 held in Singapore Expo on 20th March
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Yesterday,my siblings,V and I went to singapore. we went to watch Li ying cheer.
I had fun and it was good. :-)
Li Ying was good and the others were good too.
enjoyed the company of my siblings and v.like usual. haha.
My brother and Li Ying,they look good together eh? :-)

It was raining and we thought we were late, haha. I actually did have time to take this picture. tsk. V said i look like shit. haha.

we went the wrong way or something. we used the wrong door, so yeah. it was the backstage of City Harvest Church and if we actually walked in more, we would actually be going to the place where the cheerleaders rest and prac. i reckon.

The Victoria Chew. =P

The pictures are in fb. well, in my sister's fb photos. there are video's too. its better. =)
Here are some pictures,

Ok, there are only two. I thought i uploaded more. ok whatever, go see at fb.

Before leaving the place. Yingy looks good eh?
*
Forgot to mention, Calista went up to singapore to watch li ying together with us, shirlaine drove up. Jasmine and ser min was already there when we reached. Eunice came after that.
Oh, I LOVE SUBWAY.
*
School starts tomorrow, results/teachers/homework/waking up early/exams = sadness. :-)

tsk.
*

Everyone is unique.

Netball U18, 2010. =)

2010-03-20T01:18:00.004+08:00

Netball sigs.

My school netball team is the best. (:
*
AHHH, I REALLY DON'T LIKE BLOGGING.
it's not fun anymore. heh.
*

You make me go crazy, all I can do is stay calm and be numb.

=)

2010-03-18T22:54:00.008+08:00

my dear friends, Nicole, Jesslyn and Fariha.

we look alike eh? We are sista's. If v was here, it would be 3 sista'zzz. =)

2010-03-04T20:57:00.003+08:00

Peace.
we all want world peace.
we want peace in our hearts.
we want peace in our life.
but why do people just make everything not peaceful?
*
that's a question many asked.
and the answer will always be different.
reasons that can sound stupid might be the answer for the question.
what's your answer?there is really nothing we can do to make peace if the other party doesn't want to cooperate.life can be peaceful, i believe so.

syg,thankyouforunderstanding.

This is life.

2010-03-02T22:02:00.004+08:00

Knowing your friend or the person you love is feeling unhappy and hurt does suck.
It feels like crap that i can't do anything about it. all i can do is sit there and look.
Sometimes i just want to sleep like the little boy in the photo and never wake up.
I would pray for the happiness of my family and friends and fall asleep.
Oh, the feeling of numbness and feeling stone does actually suck when you think about it.That's how i'm feeling. the numbness and stone feeling. tsk.
*
Oh God, please make my family and friends happy. amen.
*

P/S ; 469.

2010-02-28T23:59:00.003+08:00

Ah suddenly wish time could stop and let me have a break from all this.
just one minute?a second maybe?
i want to hear you say, i love you. again.
i want to say sorry and thank you.
i wanna hug you and tell you that your amazing.
oh well, i can only regret.
i'm not going to say i miss you,i will just wait for it to go away.
*
THANK YOU FOR THE SUNFLOWERS,SOMETHING.
Pictures :

J,J,H,V.

Victoria,Joanne,Fariha,Jesslyn.

Jess,Jc,Haa,Vic

imissyoub.

: Heaven is a better place.

2010-02-28T23:01:00.002+08:00

Heaven is for sure better than here, rest in peace my dearest teacher,pn tea lee keng.
It is sad to know a great and amazing teacher has passed away.
Getting to know we won't be seeing you again,it is really sad.
I pray god will bring you to a better place.
we as students will always remember you, you are a great teacher to us.
Thank you for everything, pn tea.

Birthday Pictures. :D

2010-02-25T22:03:00.013+08:00

More Pictures in fb. =)

I have awesome friends. =)
THANK YOU.

2010-02-23T00:27:00.017+08:00

THANK YOU FOR THE WISHES.
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abel,evelyn,fariha,naziha,nicole,denise,supha,jeremy,yolandar,darshini,jian lynn,nethanel,diyana,pei2,justinlow,bryan,pura,iqqin,brendan,ying ying,jasmine,qi hao,jex,stefaniechen,jia yi,qi xuan,farah,fatin,kaytrieese,xi zhe,daddy,mummy,lynn,cik julie,calista,kimberley,nicolepoon,danial,serhan,sam,emy,daniel,mun xing,ahmuy,joseph,echa,kenneth,dickson,you xian,yaya,rebekahcheng,tsing yiu,munnie,philip,hopewittington,sarahrainford,sabrina,jesslyn,achik,aisya,kanages,alan,qin wen,emily,jerome,evelynsoh,adeline,elizabeth,shi yin,aryo,fiona,jessie,gideon,aerenia,evangeline,eric,angeline,abigailesther,roguy,eunice,kechik,qi yuan,meiyee,evonne,esthergan,jacelynsoh,estherlim,stella,kaytrieese,leo,yvonne,alven,charlie,jeffrey,zoe,alnick,reuben,ian,cheryl,luke,istefan,janicechin,ah yee,herriet,janicesoh,michael,qi ting,eu chuan,janicechian,qi ren,yaya,paa,jiaa,shirlaine,jian lynn,nithiyah,sara,norina,fifie,norlela,winnie,hui mei,ashwani,gps,victoria and many many more. i know there are more of you, but i just can't remember all and write all down. THANK YOU FOR ALL THE WISHES. =)
*
FACEBOOK FRIENDS, THANK YOU.
TWITTER FRIENDS, THANK YOU.
SCHOOL FRIENDS, THANK YOU VERY VERY MUCH.
CLOSE FRIENDS, THANKS A MILLION.
SCHOOL TEACHERS, THANKS ALOT.
NETBALL TEAMMATES, THANKS A MILLION + THOUSAND. :p
FAMILY MEMBERS, THANKS THANKS.
*
special thanks to a few that made me smile and happy today :
Fariha for making my day amazing, the cake, the present and surprise.
Abel for the birthday song and being first to wish me.
Victoria chew for celebrating my birthday for me with three gangs of people.
Dickson,Kenneth and you xian for making my night end well and happy.
Li ying and Jasmine for birthday dinner and pooh stuffs.
Shirlaine,Jie and Kor for the GAP sweater.
Farah for the star.
Calvin and cherri for the doggy and first present.
Echa for the card.
Jia yi for elmo.
Yaya for pooh.
Netballers for the surprise and song.
Classmates for the two birthday songs.
Evelyn for calling at 12am my time.
Naziha,Fatin and Nicole for wishing me many many times.
Iqqin,brendan and bryan for calling me =)
Pura for texting me and the birthday song.
Jie and supha for the blog post.
thank you for all your wishes.
(sorry if i missed out some,but i do remember.)
*
every year sucked for me, but this year ROCKED.
thank you all for making my day great.
*
FARIHA.FARIHA.VICKY.VICKY.NETBALLERS.NETBALLERS.SCHOOLMATES.SCHOOLMATES.YING YING.JASMINE.KENNETH,YOU XIAN,DICKSON.
THANK YOU VERY MUCH. <3>
*
thanks for calling,texting,email-ing,singing,facebook-ing,tweeter-ing,myspace-ing and wishes.
*
(pictures will be updated soon)
I HAD A GREAT DAY, GREAT BIRTHDAY. =)

last few hours being 15years old. :-)

2010-02-22T22:35:00.005+08:00

I wouldn't say i would miss being 15years old because my year when i was 15 years old kinda suck big time. haha, but i also really liked the year for some reasons. i got to know more people and stuff like that. so yeah, not that bad. i don't hate being 15years old. i just don't like being. haha. okay, tomorrow's my birthday.my 15year old birthday was the worse. it really sucked. trust me, if you wanna know. try asking v or just ask me. it sucked. well, i hope tomorrow will be better than the last year.if not right, i will really be very sad hahaha. actually i don't really care if it's my birthday. it's just another normal day. so blah, whatever. :-)

when i was 15years old, i got to know fariha,abel,yaya,apis,ona,pura & many more.
i guess it's e happiest part i can think of, it's i made more friends.

goodbye 15 years old. Haha, sorry but you won't be missed.

hehe.

2010-02-22T00:00:00.000+08:00

2010-02-21T21:36:00.005+08:00

Oh Hello.
I very malas want to type but I'm gonna still blog.
School starts tomorrow. I'm so sad. haha.
Okay, I don't have anything to say actually.
*
My week was good and tiring.
Visiting and going out. it was fun though.
I love family time,I love it when ying comes over to my place,I love it when shir comes over to jb,I love it when I get to see aiyoyo po po,I love it when i get to see tai po,I love it that I get to go back home late,I love it that there's no school and homeworks,I love it when I can laugh about everything on cny,I love it that I get ang pau,I love it that I see my cute cousins running around,I love it that I see everyone wearing new clothes and taking pictures,I love it when i get to eat good food,I love it that I get to lepak with my friends,I love it that I get to be with my siblings everyday,most of all...I LOVE IT THAT IT'S A HOLIDAY.
*
and now.. the holiday i love, is gonna end.
BOOM. I hate it. haha. :D

She is Li Ying,My brother's girlfriend. :)

i want you for my birthday.

Family my everything.

2010-02-20T00:59:00.004+08:00

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR AGAIN.
I LOVE CNY. I LOVE CNY.
sayang family saya sangat2.

Favourite people in my family. :D

My greatgrandma i LOVE banyak.

Siblings. tsk, love them.

see who wins.

2010-02-13T12:14:00.005+08:00

oh run and see who wins.
racing is bullshit. at the end, what do you get?

let's just not run away from problems and decisions.let's not take life as a race too.

say goodbye and say hello.

start where you stopped.
-
I just bathed my both dogs.
Golden and Lucky are just so cute.
:) adorable rascals.
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HAVE A GREAT CHINESE NEW YEAR.

take care! ciao.

2010-02-12T21:04:00.004+08:00

let me tell you,who is happy today?
answer: Joanne Chian Chui Yuen.
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A week away from teachers,homeworks,books,nagging,sleepyness,tiredness,unhappiness and loneliness.
ONE WEEK BREAK FOR MY OTAK AND HEART.(jagan kacau i minggu ini alright?terima kasih)
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I realise i like being tired. i like being exhausted at the end of the day. i get to sleep really well and not wake up. i like being tired and busy. i should be busy the whole week. that's what i'm gonna do. being busy is good for me, very good.
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Music used to make me feel all kinds of emotion but now, at this moment of time. it's numb. i feel the same in every kind of songs. it doesn't make me cry or smile anymore. Music, where did you go? are you tired of me? nah, i guess i'm tired of you. i like you but not everytime. you make me go crazy yet i still come for you everyday. music, how can i live without you? this week, music is gonna stay by my side and bore me. heh.
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I'm gonna try take many pictures. CNY MUST ROCK. i hope so.
haha, DSLR is gonna be used again. lalala.
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I hope everyone enjoys their holidays and new year.
HAVE A GREAT ONE. ang pao, love you. love me too? hehe.
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TAKE CARE AND ENJOY YOUR ONE WEEK PEOPLE!
XX

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p/s: whatya want from me baby? i really wanna know now.

GAME BOY. PSP.

2010-02-09T19:21:00.002+08:00

LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE.

My fav: GREEN. My unfav: PINK.

*
I like my game boy,my psp, i want DS. )-:
Haha,when i have it... i rarely use. so, yeah should not get DS or whatever.
*
CNY NEXT WEEK, HOORAY.
THAT MEANS.. NO SCHOOL.
HOLIDAY. CUTI. HOLIDAY. CUTI. HOLIDAY. CUTI.
bagos good bagos great. yay.
*
okaygoodbye, HAPPY SHOPPING! :)))))

What Is Your Problem?

2010-02-09T18:28:00.003+08:00

TSK, sometimes people just do silly things that make someone hate/love you.
*

hello,I AM JOANNE CHIAN.

I want to fly and see the moon.

How i wish i could get everything i want.

Why do i feel like it's working but it's wrong.

Okay, i'm just really bored.

What else can i say?

Oh oh oh, i'm going to singapore to shop on thursday.

Wanna try guess who i'm going with?

Bingo, your right. it's V. haha.

I'm so lame, macam talking to myself.

Alright, GOODBYE.

Miss me ok, cause i won't.

*
BOO, you make me go crazy.

WHAT THE SLEEP?

2010-02-08T17:35:00.005+08:00

HEY HEY YOU YOU.

SLEPT FOR 15 HOURS.

Chun-ted right? tsk.

OKAY,I skipped school again.

Had phy tuition with V :-)

Pictures after tuition.like usual. HUAHUAHUA.

Sunday, netball.
Iqqin ask to help play cause their team not enough people.
very last minute. So yeah, v and i went to help play. :-)

v and j.
TEAM. (Don't know their names)
Iqqin and Joanne.
(SP shirt, supha beli for me. terima kasih banyak. suka suka. :-).)

us again. bosankan? :D

OKAY BYE.

Jakarta Pictures.

2010-02-06T23:32:00.004+08:00

JAKARTA WAS FUN. :-)

(late pictures, hehe.)

NICE PLACE TO GO, YOU SHOULD GO.

pooh darling.
Us at the zoo.
My very BEAUTIFUL mother.

LEET,SHIR,WEI,YUEN. ;-)

macam beggars seh.

hehe. :-) while my sister shops.i sit and ask brother take my picture.

Lumpy and Yumpy.

Me and Mother.

FOOD'S good.

kakak and adik. DO RE MI. so short )=

ERRRR... BYE BYE!

laughs? :-)

2010-02-06T22:54:00.002+08:00

I skipped school. Opps? :-)
Feels so good to wake up late. sigh, so nice know. hehe.
okay, now the greater part of today...
I met Eunice. :-) after very long.
heee.. pictures.
*

J,E,V
Vic,Eunice,Jc.

Ate dinner at roost with V, :-) her art. CHEH.

*******

I WANT TO BUY CNY CLOTHES! )-:

OKAY BYE.

What is your mood?

2010-02-03T22:39:00.003+08:00

Three different days,different time,different mood,different feelings.
I can't recall back much, how i wish i would get a chance to go back then.
maybe i could change something then? Maybe? I don't know.
Three randoms picture's i took from my album.
What can i recall? not much. sigh.
*

photo 1#

I was out with sister and shir @ roost.
photo 2#
Hmm.

photo 3#
Foa, that's evelyn chew.

Tsk,I'm not feeling well.
and it sucks.

GOODNIGHT!

here comes february.

2010-02-02T23:06:00.002+08:00

HAPPY FEBRUARY!

Hello,it's feb already.

it's just to fast. tsk.

i can't even remember what i did last month.

argh, this month will be hectic but i think i'll enjoy it much.

Cny and Exam and Birthday and Holiday and Netball?

Okay, i think i just hate the exam part.

other than that, it's all good and great.

i simply don't care if my birthday is coming, but i do care about cny.

I miss my greatgrandma,i call her tai po. :-)

I just can't wait to see her i don't know why, i hope she's doing good and missing me too. heh.

Many friend's birthday this month. tsk, money money money.

but i guess ang pao money will be enough to buy presents.

I off-ed my phone.both phones.

I just don't feel like on-ing it.

so, if i don't reply. means my phone's off.

i'll on it back but when i feel like off-ing i'll just off it.

i don't feel like texting anyone or answering calls.

in short,i am lazy to and don't want to layan.

okay, that's it for now.

Have a great week.

Take Care.
*

Sometimes being silent is better.

aku sangat bosan.

2010-01-31T21:39:00.002+08:00

PLEASE STOP ALL THE BULLSHIT.PLEASE STOP MAKING ME GO CRAZY.I WISH MY LIFE CAN BE LIKE A RECORDER AND I CAN STOP IT ANYTIME I WANT.I ONLY WANT TO KEEP HAPPY MEMORIES.HOW I WISH....

=) and =(

2010-01-31T18:47:00.010+08:00

hello hello hello.
my week was hectic.was fun but very sad.
many friends are going away,my school mates i use to have fun with are leaving.
i can't cry but i'm deeply sad that so many are leaving.
*
well,i guess the saddest is still syeera leaving.
she's my sayang, i really will miss her.
she's always there to make me smile. tsk.
this is so sad,she is leaving vogee members and us.
take good care syeera syg. ):

syeera and me, last year.
she's going to sbp. some real good school.
*
had a farewell party/birthday party for Alia yesterday.
She's my last year classmate.we were classmates for 3years.
well,almost everyone in the picture are my classmates for 3years.
<3>top:victoria,rachel,munirah,nithiyah,faralisa,me,feqah.

below:ahmoy,nina,eve lyne,uga,uga's brother,norina,sara,alia,qi xuan,winnie.

I was the photographer yesterday. hahah.
finally, got to take few pictures that has me in it. ;)

Faralisa is leaving too. ): She's going to muar.

and here's Alia. :) She'll be going to STF.

and Dayana,Farah and so on. they all leaving GS already. tsk.

okay now, happy part.
I got to go teenz after so long, thanks to stel. we got transpot.we=V and me.

Took pictures.
Pui and Eunice didn't come.

v,jan,nicole,me,zoe.
yvonne,jan2,stefi,minnie,stella,esther.

okay, to the sad part again.

haha, farewell party for victor lum yaw siang.
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my balloon, Dickson very bad in drawing. :p

Pui Ling and me.

Baikkan? :D

Yaw Siang. ;)

Dickson and me.

Yaw Siang and Joanne. hehe, my iphone. ;)

ys and our card.

and me. last picture. =)

no netball,no sports,no nothing for school because sultan passed away.

many was happy. i have no feeling. :)

Good day people!
*
I HAD THE WORSE DREAM EVER LAST NIGHT, A DREAM I WILL NEVER WANT IT TO HAPPEN.TREASURE LIFE,TREASURE THE PEOPLE YOU HAVE NOW,

DON'T REGRET.

Life.

2010-01-26T20:27:00.006+08:00

Iamgoingtorocktheworldandnoonewillbeabletostopmenow.iamwhoiamandnoonecanchangeme.iwanttobewhoiwanttobe.itmaynotbetherightmovebutnowyesiwanttotryagainandseeififindbacktheoldmeiusedtoknow.imaynotliketheoldmebutatleastiwontbehangingandnotknowingwhattodowithmylife.nowiknowwhatiwanttodoandthatisbethejoannechianiusedtoknow.theonepeopledontknowbutonlyiwouldknow.godmaynotbeonmysidethistimebutihopeheunderstands.iwillbeok.

WE SHOULD LIVE LIFE WELL BECAUSE THE WORLD IS SO BEAUTIFUL AND SMILE BECAUSE SMILING IS FREE.TREASURE WHAT YOU HAVE NOW AND DON'T REGRET.

Trying and failing will always be better than not trying at all.

boo?

2010-01-25T20:20:00.002+08:00

HELLO HAI HEY HI!

where there's a will,there's a way.
i believe god is real,god will be there when i fall.
No one is perfect,never give up because if you give up,you are a loser.
as long as we don't give up,we will always be winners.
trust and believe in yourself that you can do all things.
God will never let us be alone,we are never alone.
*
you'll never walk alone.

BestFriendku.

2010-01-25T18:41:00.004+08:00

Picture 1#

Picture 2#
Picture 3#
Picture 4#
Picture 5#

more pictures : FB.

Bestfriendku,Victoria Chew Wei Kit.

Saya panggil dia Vic,kadang-kadang saya panggil dia V tapi dia tak respond langsung.haha.

Dia anatomy Saya,Saya anatomy Dia.Kamu jagan pikir lain.

Hari ini, anny 2tahun 10bulan kita jadi BestFriend.

Tak lama tapi rasa macam kenal dia lama GILA.

Saya tak biasa tulis malay dalam full macam ini, takot orang tak faham.

blah.

V,kau phm da ckup meyh.tsk susa gler nk tlis full. haha.

Happy 2thn 10bln kwn baek aku.

Kau nie jht gler,ta baek aty,ta caring,ta loving lgsg..tp kau nie true friendku.

sy sngt2 hargai friendship yg kte ade, yg owg laen ta bley phm..kte je yg phm.

sy suke kacau u..u lg la suke..ue da jd hobby kau kn? hehe.

Kamu tidak pernah gagal buat Saya gembira dan senyum.

hehe, kamu hard-core.saya tak hard-core.

kamu suka senyum,saya tidak suka senyum.

kamu happy go lucky,saya emo go unlucky.

kamu suka shopping & girly stuff,saya tak suka shopping & suka boyish stuff.

kamu dengan saya sangat beza.

tapi ada satu yang kita akan selalu sama..

and that is we are Bestfriend's and we understand each other.

You know i hate you,
J.
*

p/s : my malay sucks. TSK.

boredom.

2010-01-23T23:08:00.003+08:00

okay ok kay k okie okey ohkay okkk.

today today today is a very boring day for me.

guess what i did?

i woke up,i ate brunch,i watched tv,i ate dinner,i watch tv and now i'm here.

hahaha, my eyes are tired and my head is pain.

well, so i heard there are few more people that passed away.

rest in peace, people.

life is so short, we should live it well.

and haha, look at me.. i watched tv all day.

that's my day, wasted one day.

did you look at yourself in the mirror today?

look at yourself in the mirror and what can you say about yourself?

some will say they look amazing,some will say they look ugly, what about you?

ok blah blah. i'm crapping again.

i very lazy to reply people's text today.

good thing not many texted me today,if not i sure won't reply.

i used to love texting but now? i don't like it anymore.

tsk. so,i'm sorry if i tak reply your text.

remind yourself that your amazing and unique in god's eye.

we should never give up on hope.

oh sultan, rest in peace.

2010-01-23T02:31:00.004+08:00

HI!

It's 2:35am and i can't seem to sleep at all.

i don't feel tired or sleepy anymore.

i was super super tired just now.

and now? i feel so awake.

sooooo, when i'm bored.

i come online and blog and write lame stuffs and post a post with pictures.

i ate maggy mee for supper again. yum tum tum. i just really like to eat maggy. :D

don't you like it? i bet you do. it's so nice.

bad for health i know, i know i know.. but it's still nice. haha.

when i'm bored, i also take pictures with my webcam.
picture 1 #

Picture 2#
picture 3#
hehe, my messy 'pom' terrible banyak hair, my brother and liying :)
.

tmr no school, i'm a happy kid.
i wish wish wish monday also got holiday. ):

ciao!
*

one more month to my birthday.

woah i'm so not looking forward to it.
tsk, so sad. haha.

i want to be a small kid again

2010-01-20T13:39:00.007+08:00

childhood.

what was your childhood like?

was it good or bad? was it a fun childhood or some sad childhood?

everyone has different childhood memories,do you miss being a kid?

as for me, the only few childhood memories i have is me playing with my brother at home.

and oh the times with my nanny,aunty mary. i miss her like crazy.

that's the only two childhood memories i can remember.

the both people that made my childhood good,aunty mary and my brother.

if i can choose,i want to turn back time.

i want to change so many things but i know its impossible.

so all i can is, i miss being a kid and i would love to be a kid again.

little kids are cute but they are noisy and annoying at times.but little kids bring no harm.they are all naive and innocent.no one wants to hurt no one.

my best and only birthday that i remembered and loved.

my 7years old birthday party. =)

will i ever have that feeling and happiness on my birthday again?

goodbye bai bai bye bye ciao!

You are my sunshine that will always be kept in my heart.

2010-01-19T17:15:00.003+08:00

thank you for the flower,something.
*
the flower made me smile.
*

you will always be my sunshine and i'm keeping you at the deepest part of my heart.
don't die and i know you will be okay, because your YOU.

180309,a date i'll never forget.

ineedtoletyougoalready,pleasebeokay.

k-rap.

2010-01-19T16:56:00.005+08:00

Heyyloooo haaaaaaahh!

I DISLIKE TUITION,I DON'T LIKE TUITION,I ABHOR TUITION,I DETEST TUITION,I TAK SUKA TUITION,WO BU XI HUAN BU XI, SAYA SANGAT TAK SUKA TUITION.

okokokok, some pictures after tuition.

I'M NOT FEELING WELL,I SLEPT IN SCHOOL WHILE TEACHER WAS TEACHING. :)

ALRIGHT, I HOPE YOUR DAY WAS GOOD. I'M GONNA GO SLEEP.

I NEED REST AND I NEED A BREAK FOR MY BRAIN AND HEART.

ciao!

NEVER LOOK DOWN ON OTHERS,EVERYONE IS UNIQUE.

I apologise.

2010-01-18T21:26:00.004+08:00

I won't say it all the time but i'm going to say it here.
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I'm Sorry.
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I am not the joanne chian i used to know anymore,she is hiding somewhere.she is missing and i can't find her back.i want to find her and try get her back but i can't find her.i don't know what had happen to her.where is she? what happen to her? will she ever come back?I don't know,the joanne chian now doesn't know.Don't ask me questions cause the answer will be I don't know..How i wish i know the answers to your questions and my own questions.
I can't think,I don't want to think,I fear to think or feel and I am scared to search for the answers so please don't force me.Don't let me feel,Please.
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I am sorry i don't know where joanne chian went.
she is missing. I can't find her.

let it go and shut up.

2010-01-18T21:06:00.003+08:00

i miss lepak-ing with all my friends.

i am numb and i can't think of anything positive.

my brain is stuck and is filled with nonsense and rubbish.

i realise i need to learn to shut up when i need to.

i speak to much,i talk to much,i lie to much,i argue to much,i should just ...

shut up.

sometimes not talking is better than talking.

now, i feel like i'm a horrible person.

well,i guess everyone has a point of time when they feel like they screwed everything and said wrong stuff,did something wrong,feel guilty and bad,made bad decisions and all.

but after everything, why fear so much?

just take the consequences if it turns out bad,if it doesn't just thank god.

i will shut up from now on, i won't make the same mistake again.

i find myself hiding inside a bag and trying to get out but the more i try the more stuff enters.

It shucks to feel moody when there is nothing to be moody about.

the feeling is crap.

GOODBYE.

life is boring but fun.

2010-01-17T18:37:00.007+08:00

HELLO HAI HEY HI YO SUPP. ;)

My day was just like that, i felt like blogging. so yeah here i am.

oh before i show you some pictures,

i want to wish li cheng and aien HAPPY BIRTHDAY!

Li cheng's 15years old and Aien's 16years old. :D HAHA.

my birthday is coming. ah not happy and excited at all.

never had a great birthday,it's just another day. heh.

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hm, this picture was taken yesterday at starbucks with V.

OOLALALA,i look cacat-ed. heh
My squash racquet,V bought for me.
haha and my mouse pad. SO CUTE RIGHT?
i know i know i know! :D
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my week will be hectic this week. pooft.
monday-school and tuition.tuesday-school and tuition.wednesday-school and tuition.thursday-stay back for sports stuff.friday-netball training.saturday-(i think got school or i'll go church)sunday-TUITION. );
(don't need to stalk me,i already wrote my week down here,haha)
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okay hahahaha, i abhor my blog. don't think anyone reads it.
so whatever, haha goodbye ciao!

shoes shoes shoes and starbucks.

2010-01-16T19:33:00.006+08:00

I had fun today.very fun.
yesterday and today was fun. :)
had netball training yesterday and it was really fun.
today, went to buy my sports shoe and went to starbucks.
met farah,roguy(norina) and aien.I was with V.
V bought her sports shoe too. hers is purple and mine is blue.
TODAY WAS GREAT, i love weekends. BLAH.
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here are some pictures :

roguy,farah,joanne and victoria.

J and V.

J,V,F.

her name is aien. Tmr's her birthday.
Happy Coming Birthday.

Joanne and Vicky.

saya sangat suka gambar ini.

LAST PICTURE. SMILE! :D

more pictures at Fb.

life will be great when you live it well.

live the life we want and don't live life for others.

2010-01-16T10:48:00.008+08:00

what do you see in this picture?

the colour of the horse is so cool?

the colour is your favourite colour?

but for me, i find the horse really sad.

i find that the horse feels very sad.

that's what i see, i will never know because it's a picture.

but i see sadness in that pink beautiful horse.

what about you?

everyone is different,different but special in all ways.

no one is right and no one is wrong. it's just how we think and feel,some may never understand why and what we are going thru.

and there are people that understands so well even without knowing what had happen.

people judge,people abhor each other,people betray each other.what is the point? what do you get in the end of all this?haha NOTHING.

live life the way you want and not for others,

others may expect or want you to be someone you are not.

then let it be, why do you want to force yourself to be someone else.be yourself,be who you want to be,be the person you want to be and not the person others want you to be.

life is short,there is only one life.why fake and act to be someone else to please others?

it's your life and not the person's life.

LIVE LIFE FOR YOURSELF AND NO ONE ELSE.

you can try to be the person others expect you to be, but the happiness will never be there.

if they can't accept you for who you are, then let it be. it's not worth it to change or try to be the person they want you to be.

everyone is different and unique in different ways.

we should understand and accept everyone.no one is perfect.

life can be a bitch sometimes, but if you treat life well. life can treat you very very well too.

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my fox sweater! :)

thank you banyak banyak,my brother and li ying.

i like it very much.

thanks yeah!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY KAYTRIEESE TEE!

goodbye.

p.s. i can't wait to get my new sports shoe. haha.

baby steps.

2010-01-15T20:12:00.005+08:00

I started a step and it may not turn out good,it may be fake but at the end of everything,

i felt good that i took this small step.A step that can make me feel better.

i may regret taking this step but at least i know i tried.

no harm trying and friends will always be better than enemies.

I am not God, i can never see the real or fake side of someone.

i can not see the person's true colours.i can only believe what i feel and think it's right.I fear to take the wrong step,but i want to try and go on with what i think it's right.

it may not be the right step to others but for me now, it is the right step.

i can't predict the future.

all i can do now is hand everything to God.

let God take my place and guide me with his righteous.

I am not perfect,i'm just joanne chian.

A girl that is trying to fit in with her life and everyone in the world.

i am just Joanne Chian.

have a great weekend babes and dudes!

xxxxxxx

do not forget who you are,you are someone in this world and something special to someone.

i bet this.

what is going on with your life right now?

2010-01-12T17:48:00.002+08:00

what is everyone in Malaysia doing right now?

have you ever wonder what others are doing?

have you ever imagine how others live life?

have you ever thought of the other humans in the world?

well,I do think all the time and i realise that 70% of people are unhappy and 30% of people are happy.it's so sad to know that not many humans are happy these days.life can really make someone and anyone go crazy.

however smart and beautiful you are, you will always have a sad part of your life and i know it must suck.

sometimes humans just wants to show the world who they really are,but no one ever bothers to see and no one gives two shits about them.

why do people judge just like that?i find it very very wrong.

whoever who doesn't know how to treat someone well and treasure someone.they are the loser and not the winner because they couldn't see the good in that someone.all they ever see is flaws and thinking they are greater than everyone else. fyl.

No damn person is perfect and only God is perfect. Are you God?

Do not judge others when you are not even near to perfect. it's stupid if you think it properly.

before judging others,please judge yourself first.

we should try to understand and accept,do not speak bull before thinking.

live the life we want and try not to make any decisions that will make us regret in future.

one year,the only year 2010.

live it well and happily without regrets. =) !

don't forget who you are.

Where There's A Will,There's A Way.

2010-01-12T17:16:00.005+08:00

It's a year i'm going to enjoy and try find my way back to the right road.

last year was bad and it's gonna change this year.

J thinks she can do it and I hope everyone will have a better year.

A new year,everything is going to be NEW for me.

i'm going to start it right this time.

it is not the mountain we conquer but ourselves.

nothing comes easy but nothing is impossible.
don't cry because it's over,smile because it happened.

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5:40pm.

PICTURES.

2010-01-11T23:39:00.003+08:00

Calista,Kimberley and Me.
V,J,J.

Wei Lik's birthday dinner at roost @zon.

V's birthday lunch at soup restaurant.

picture 2.#

ice skating-toilet.

waiting for the bus. tsk tsk. lama gile.

picture picture.

oolala, i love this picture.

Wei Lik's birthday dinner.

Supha's birthday party.

BIRTHDAY BOY gets the girls. =p

i'll be back.

2010-01-04T21:12:00.002+08:00

I HAVE NO MOOD TO BLOG ANYMORE.
i will be back.

wei lik's party,supha's party and v's birthday at sg.
pictures will be out. =)

have a good month!
goodbye.

To: My Bestfriend,V.

2010-01-02T00:55:00.000+08:00

Victoria Chew,HAPPY BIRTHDAY!

i would want to write a very long and meaningful post for you,

but everything i want to write or say..i bet you would already know.

so,i'm going to just write a short post.

my dearest kuku,have a blessed birthday and i hope your year will be great!

you know i'll always be here,v.

******

you know i love you,
your bestfriend,J.

pictures i love : 2009.

2010-01-01T21:05:00.001+08:00

there are more, but i think i put to many already.
so, bye bye.

2009. the last post for this year.

2009-12-31T23:39:00.000+08:00

hello everyone, HAPPY NEW YEAR'S EVE.
it's 11:40pm. hopefully i can finish writing my post before 12am.

anyways, this year was very bad and its not a year that i liked.
but its a year i will never want to forget because its a year that maked me stronger and this year made me learned to be better and nicer.

i may have offended many this year, and for that i apologise.
i may have hurt many people as well, i'm very sorry.

i should make it short and nice because time is running out.

i would like to thank a few people that made my year good.

My family daddy,mummy,jiejie and kor kor(big thank you to my BROTHER),my bestfriend victoria chew,my number 7,my close good friends Jian Lynn and Nithiyah,my something suphatta,my Cg leader stella pang and all my cg members,Vogeh members(all of them),Netball team mates(yaya, fariha,nicole and others),my friends i care for(abel,qi yuan,nicole,calista,kimberley,eunice,pui ling,jia yi and a few more)

THANK YOU AND SORRY!
i will write in detail next time.

goodbye 2009 and hello 2010.

baby, goodbye.

hanging on will only inflict pain it's worthless

2009-12-29T01:29:00.000+08:00

a year that sucked for me, but i don't want 2009 to end yet.
i don't want it to just end like that.

i want it to end well and nice.

will your 20% be right?will my 80% be wrong?

how i wish yours was 80% and mine was 20%.

whatever it is, i want 2009 to end well.

i can't take you with me to the year 2010.

i'm tired and i miss you..

goodnight!

love,2009 is ddct to you.
iwillmissyou.

you are out.

2009-12-27T04:25:00.000+08:00

all that's left is a heart that's damaged
a cut far too deep to heal
woke up from dreaming
because i was awakened by tears
trials and tribulations has weakened my heart
pray for my aching heart to be strong
even if i'm void of any strength
i must pick myself up again
one person couldn't have that much authority
she can't hurt me to death
no matter what, i'll have to cope with it
it's just a painful part of life
but in the end it can't destroy me
it's just a shattered heart right now
i must remind myself that no matter what
i must live on
hanging on will only inflict pain
it's worthless
i won't let it destroy my life
crying won't help anything
the more it's emphasized
the more i do it, the more i'll be heartborken
i will pick myself up
there is always a tomorrow.

2009-12-25T16:23:00.000+08:00

this picture is ddct to 7.

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i miss you,i hate you and i love you.

some find it very hard to say, some just say it everyday.

what about you?

do you say it only to your boyfriends/girlfriends? or you say it to everyone you know?

i think every word means something and its very important to say it to the right person.

some people may misunderstand and some may just be heartbroken.

every word we say to people means something to them..

what more words like imy,ihy and ily?

just 3words can change alot.

what do you want from me?

i miss you,its true.
i don't hate you,i tried but i can't.
i don't want to love you,i will stop.

its not wrong to miss someone from the past.

but its wrong if you do the same mistake again.

sometimes the person you love just isn't right for you.

let go and give up.

if the person loves you,

the person would want you to be happy.

all i want for christmas is you and you to be happy.

goodbye.

my heart & my brain

One chapter of happiness.

She's awesome.

P.S. You make me LIVE.

PICTURE PICTURE PICTURE.

Thank you.

WORLD CUP.

Happy Birthday, Haa.

Supha ;

; AMY JANE YEAP.

3 JULY

27 June 1995, Happy Birthday Heather Tay.

7 JUNE.

Only those who will risk going too far can possibly find out howfar one can go.

You never fail until you stop trying.I think the greatest mistake you can make in this life is to be continuallyfearing you will make one. =]

1 2 3 SAY CHEESE.

5 June.

Janice&Jillian. :)

Give yourself a break.

Oh School.

; hate feeling sick.

Someone I would never forget.

Jess's birthday.

Happy Birthday Sisterku, hwuaa.

My Numbers.

I got a feeling, tonight's going to be a good night.

Treasure everything we have.

Formspring

National Cheerleading Championship.

Netball U18, 2010. =)

=)

This is life.

P/S ; 469.

: Heaven is a better place.

Birthday Pictures. :D

last few hours being 15years old. :-)

hehe.

Family my everything.

see who wins.

GAME BOY. PSP.

What Is Your Problem?

WHAT THE SLEEP?

Jakarta Pictures.

laughs? :-)

What is your mood?

here comes february.

aku sangat bosan.

=) and =(

Life.

boo?

BestFriendku.

boredom.

oh sultan, rest in peace.

i want to be a small kid again

You are my sunshine that will always be kept in my heart.

k-rap.

I apologise.

let it go and shut up.

life is boring but fun.

shoes shoes shoes and starbucks.

live the life we want and don't live life for others.

baby steps.

what is going on with your life right now?

Where There's A Will,There's A Way.

PICTURES.

i'll be back.

To: My Bestfriend,V.

pictures i love : 2009.

2009. the last post for this year.

hanging on will only inflict pain it's worthless

you are out.

Only those who will risk going too far can possibly find out how
far one can go.

You never fail until you stop trying.I think the greatest mistake you can make in this life is to be continually
fearing you will make one. =]